2009 Mirror and Smokes 9002

After nearly 4 hours of flight from Singapore to Guangzhou Baiyun Airport, and 2 hours of waiting for transit and another 1 hour of flight from Guangzhou to Hunan, I reached Changsha. The first thing I noted was the freeze. It was really cold. Much colder than I expected. I was constantly breathing out smoke. It was fun, but at a price.

Xiao Xu fetched us from the airport and brought us to Gold Source Hotel (金源大酒店). The hotel is the second nicest one that I have stayed. The room is big enough for a couch and a coffee table AND a king-sized bed (well almost but definitely bigger than a queen-sized).

The dinner was as usual, full of people. The food is really spicy but its really good. i heart the soup too. Then the usual drinking. Can we drink Wang Lao Ji instead?

After the dinner, Xiao Xu brought us to Carrefour, where we stocked up on some necessities of life.....Cup noodles and other junkies.

By now the temperature is fast approaching zero and its raining. FYI, we had to walk in the awful razor cold wind, piercing rain and the zeroing temperature. It was more than cold. Luckily I brought my fats and some of the Singapore heat with me.

We settled down and went to fourth floor of the Hotel, in search of the Gym. There was a gym alright and it is appropriately equipped. There are also 2 billiard tables, 3 ping-pong tables AND around 7 lanes of bowling alley.

Every room is entitled to 2 free games. As such, the four of us played. In the end, the focus was not on the score but on how LOUD we can slam the bowling ball onto the alley lane. Cold sweat.....

Probably this is the only post on my Hunan trip because I can foresee the remaining days would be monotonously boring.

The heralding of the new year is just less than a month away. It would also mean a new decade, as we wearily waded away from the first decade of this millenium.

1 Jan 2010 will mean a new year and a new decade. As traditions would hold, we make resolutions, hoping that the air of freshness will lift our spirit and will and hence to accomplish what we set out to do. Yet many a time, it doesn't work out just like that. We missed our targets, frustrations set in and we pray that the next year quickly comes around, just so we can redeem ourselves from our guilt by making more resolutions.

I have a lot of resolutions. First of which is to overcome my laziness and my lack of concentration. Secondly, to better my relationships with my family and close friends and to form new frendships. Thirdly, to pass my CFA.

I could go on. But all these will then be meaningless except to assusage my guilt. I am scared of resolutions, or for that matter, making resolutions. I know I will disappoint myself.

Resolutions scare me......

I dread to pick up the task that I am embarking on. The thought of starting anything overwhelms me. I learnt that I have not accomplish anything for the past 26 years. I squandered the time away and life has a way to get back at me for the wastage.

I need to know the result or deliverables of the task that I am going to do.

I need to know what is required and how are requirements going to be achieved.

My mind seemed to be in a blank state whether I force myself to look at the tasks. I know I have a very bad concentration span and my mind will scream for pleasure whenever I am stuck in an unpleasant situation. It's too pain and frustrating for me to face down a task and to focus my energy.

I am have ONE option now.......