New place @ Outram

11:07 AM / Posted by Kenious Kongiaz / comments (0)

The whole family has shifted to a place at Outram. The first thought that screamed in my mind was.."Have I stepped into the 1970s?" It was a lone housing, built around the same time as those in Queenstown or Tao Payoh, which stood atop a small hill. It also meant that I had to climb up the hill after a long day at work.


Everything was so different from the usual HDB stuff that I had envisioned. There were 2 rooms with really poor sound-proofing, doors with opening at the top, the electric box with wooden casing, one toilet that the whole family shared and a small living room that housed everything else. There is no SCV line. There is no internet (which could be remedied as I am typing this). I just went back to 1970.

Such experiences are meant to be lived and not complained about. I soon learnt to appreciate the place. I loved my room as it was relatively spacious and allowed me to furnish it to my own liking. The strategic location of the housing meant that I could take either the NEL or the east-west line. The office is within walking distance. There are tons of food just at the foot of the place. In short, short of a Starbucks, I HEART the place.

The irony is that I will not be spending too much time in it. I am currently on a one-week break in Hong Kong. Next week, I will be away in Hunan for a month. Following which, I will be in Xiamen for 2 weeks. I do hope that I can take some time off and explore the place a bit. I think that there are a few places that reminded enigmatic to me like the Ann Siang Hill area, the Chinatown market area.

As the Chinese saying goes, "Ri Jiu Sheng Qing."

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What to blog?

9:00 AM / Posted by Kenious Kongiaz / comments (0)

I am back from a short trip from Xiamen and one of the highlights was the 10 books that I have bought. They cost about 50 sing dollar and that is about the cost of one book in Singapore. I am so inspired to write as I read through the books. Nothing beats having your thoughts articulated and transformed into words.


I think that is what blogging is about. Or for that matter, what keeping a journal is about. Coincidentally, I have bought a book on how to write daily journal.

As the year draws down to an end in another 1.5 months time, there is much to reflect, especially since this year is like the kind of year that one would say, "I have been through much." Yes, I will always remember the July Disappointment and September Depression.

In short, I have to start exploring for new paths. I can feel the inner tectonic shifting, as the magma and lava within me starts to destabilize. New lands are forming, while other sinks to the ocean bottom. Mountains becoming valleys and plains becoming the next Himalayas. 2010. The new movie.

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New perspective

5:10 PM / Posted by Kenious Kongiaz / comments (0)

The one week I have spent serving the nation was not really wasted. I have found new perspectives through the exchange of experiences with my fellow buddies. It was a rather invigorating break from the normalcy of my working life. And the camp was as if another dimension where everyone became another person. Vulgarities, obscene jokes and pranks were just part and parcel of the "new" life in this dimension. I could never have imagined anyone of us doing what we have done in ORQ or at Orchard.


I have never laughed so hard and slept so much. In a way, in spite of all the inefficiencies, the heat, the loss of civilian comfort, the ICT was in fact a much needed therapy that I needed. And I have found much more. Talking to my buddies, I realised that I have lost track of what I was looking for all these while.

Knowing that the bond with them was still there was a comforting thought. And I appreciate them for who they are.

And on my part, I will need to reach out to them and not get lost again.

On a whole, the chain of unfortunate events starting from late June and escalated in September, is a reminder of how much more I need to put in my best in my work. And how I need not envy others' lifestyle but to develop my own.

Certainly, the best thing that came out of the ICT is that there are much more options thrown out to me. Just like 5 years back, when I had switched course to Accountancy, this is another defining period.

I realised that I am too easily distracted. No good. Have to work harder on that aspect.

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Blah...

12:05 AM / Posted by Kenious Kongiaz / comments (0)

Been looking at my recent blog posts and realised how dull they are. They lack the prose and humor of my usual stuff and I am starting to think that it is the evil work of .... work itself. It seemed that my work has killed my sense of myself.


Comparing my blog posts during my uni days, I prefer to them then what I am writing now. The virtual blog-world is my real-self, whereas I dump my alter-self at the real world. It is really sad to say hi to myself here, while the alter-self types furiously away. Its hard to reconcile the two. There!! I said it...reconcile....

I now dread words like reconcile, immaterial, below scope, samples, integrity, casting, reasonable........ ~~~runs to toilet to vomit~~~

~~comes back to the keyboard~~

Dread dread and dready dread the words above.

I don't really like to hear these words when I am out of the office. They are the constant reminders of the pain and suffering I have to go through everyday of the working life. Like road signs, constantly telling you cannot U-turn, go slow, bumps ahead....

Feeling drained by the mundane nature of my job. I still like the field work. But prefffff to the admin work, the wrapping up and a lousy manager. The work is draining my personality away into the ocean. You can hear the slow, silent sucking sound.

Who is Kenneth. Really, who is he?


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Apple and the 27 inch iMac

9:48 PM / Posted by Kenious Kongiaz / comments (0)

Apple has just announced a few updates to the iMac, macbook and mac mini lines. There is now something new in the iMac line and I salivates hungrily at the new 27 inch iMac. The display is very well-defined and sharp. And at 27 inch, it can be used as a decent display for movies and shows. But of course, using it wantonly to watch tv shows is a bit taxing on the useful life of the display.


I want to get one now, but the problem is that it will only deliver in Nov and that I don't know what address should I tell Apple to deliver the iMac to.


Can't do it.

10:04 PM / Posted by Kenious Kongiaz / comments (0)

It is very easy to imagine how one would handle challenges. To lie on the bed and dream about strategies to overcome the obstacles. To conjure sentences and words to deceive the rocks and boulders. But when it really happens, it is a totally different set of perception. The pain and lethargy is a totally different experience.


Many a time I have wanted to give up and just head home and sleep. And there is a sense of helplessness, especially if the superior is a lousy one. There is just no-one to turn to. Am I prepared for the job ahead? I really don't know. I thought I knew, but I just know better now, in the light the circumstances. I can't do it.

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A nightmare

12:29 PM / Posted by Kenious Kongiaz / comments (0)

And I thought I wouldn't wake from it. The days dragged on bitterly as the changing tides and waxing and waning of the moon no longer affected me. Sun up, sun down is but a change of the colour of the sky. I lost count of the days and dates and my life was zombified.

The work was tough. The person-in-charge was even tougher. The case of the blind leading the blind. And into the abyss of pain we all jumped.

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